Saylor Grayson makes herself sick. Literally.
She ate her first needle when she was seven. Now, at nineteen, she’s been kicked out of college for poisoning herself with laxatives. The shrinks call it Munchausen Syndrome. All Saylor knows is that when she’s ill, her normally distant mother pays attention and the doctors and nurses make her feel special.
Then she meets Drew Dean, the leader of a local support group for those with terminal diseases. When he mistakes her for a new member, Saylor knows she should correct him. But she can’t bring herself to, not after she’s welcomed into a new circle of friends. Friends who, like Drew, all have illnesses ready to claim their independence or their lives
For the first time, Saylor finds out what it feels like to be in love, to have friends who genuinely care about her. But secrets have a way of revealing themselves. What will happen when Saylor’s is out?
There is always something about a book that draws you into picking it up and contemplating reading the author's story.
For me and this book it was in the synopsis, to be exact this quote from netgalley "She ate her first needle when she was seven."
I know what you are thinking, that is a weird thing to be drawn to, so let me explain, a very good friend of mine suffered with self mutilation, and there was many a time through out high school that he would show me the results of his bored nights or his hurting nights, or he would come to me and whisper in his ear that he had a needle in his stomach. I wouldn't hug him for days until I was sure it was gone.
I was drawn to the book because of that simple sentence of nine words, I was held captive by the masterful way the author wove the web.
This book is very dark, but it is so beautiful in the way that it is exactly how life is. Most books are written under the context that life is happy go lucky, full of fluffy corners, this is not the case and this book can be a testament to it.
This book brings to life the struggles of those suffering with fatal disease's and how judging them, pitying them is the last thing they want. They want to be just like everyone else, and through the struggles you join them in their life of sorrow and pain. This book also brings to life the hard truth of living and the fact that most people live for those rare glimpses of light at the end of the tunnel moments that make every single hard moment worth it.
I fell in love instantly with this book because of how honest it was written, for the ending that makes perfect sense and as it came to be I still found myself stunned that someone would write it that way.
It is a must read but with a word of warning that this is not a happy book. There are happy moments but it is also filled with sad dark ones as well.
5 out of 5 Raven's